webnovelvip Chapter 65
Chapter 65
The light in the ward was gentle and bright, and the shadows reflected on the wall overlapped into pairs. Gu Fangyan bent down, wiped the end of Xie Fei's eyes lightly with his fingertips, and said slowly but surely: "You are very good at deceiving people, because you are very good at lying. Adding a part of the truth makes things seem plausible."
"Perhaps it was true at the beginning. You confessed to me with a loudspeaker on the rooftop because you got this big adventure punishment. But now, after we have known each other for so long, do you dare to deny that you like me?"
Xie Fei said without hesitation, "I don't..."
But the second half of the sentence was blocked back, after a while, Gu Fangyan let him go, and said firmly: "You like me."
"I didn't..." Xie Fei couldn't finish her retort again. After a while, he tilted his head, stared slightly at Gu Fangyan and said, "Do you want to fight?"
"I just let you see a fact clearly." Gu Fangyan whispered.
Xie Fei: "Shameless."
Gu Fangyan didn't take Xie Fei's scolding seriously, rubbed the top of his hair, and said, "It's already late, go to bed first."
"What about you?"
"There's another bed over there." He raised his jaw and pointed to the accompanying bed next door.
Xie Fei lowered her eyes: "I didn't ask about today."
Gu Fangyan understood what Xie Fei meant, clasped his fingers, kissed the corner of his lips again, and said, "I will always be here."
The person opposite pushed him away, grabbed the quilt on his body, and said softly to him: "If you are always by my side, it will be very painful."
"You are a person, not a monitor. It is impossible to monitor me 24 hours a day. When you are outside, you are worried about whether I will harm myself or commit suicide; when facing me, you have to endure I lost my temper and threw things."
"Gradually, you will lose patience, feel bored and even hate. You will feel that I am a burden and want to get rid of it, but because of the affection and the original promise, you have to bear it."
"I'll hate you too because you always stop me from doing the things I want to do. We'd better separate now than we'll hate each other then."
Xie Fei explained his feelings of taking care of Ming Rong in those years.He knew that Ming Rong hated him, but why didn't he hate Ming Rong?
She was often unable to attend his parent-teacher meetings decently, could not accompany her children to participate in activities like other parents, and kept making troubles.He didn't want to mention his parents to his friends, and he couldn't invite others to visit his home. When there were discussions about this among his classmates, he would always stand alone outside the crowd.
Resentment is mutual, just like the first love.
Gu Fangyan listened to him quietly, looked into his eyes for a moment, and said firmly, "I won't."
Xie Fei raised the corners of her lips, mockingly: "How do you know you can't?"
"Because I love you." Gu Fangyan said.
"How long can love last?" Xie Fei met his gaze.
Gu Fangyan held his hands with both hands, speaking slowly: "Continue until I die."
Hearing such an answer, Xie Fei turned his gaze away to look at the swirling snow in the night outside the window.
"Don't you believe it?" Although it was a question, Gu Fangyan used a positive tone.
Xie Fei didn't answer, he looked down at the check pattern on his sleeves, slowly pulled up the quilt, covered his face, and fell down.
The color of the dream is black, the sky is raining, a woman in a crow black cheongsam sits behind a long wooden dining table, the transparent strings cut off her wrist veins, but she still smiles gently.
Blood splattered everywhere, congealing into magnificent and mournful flowers on the ground.
The world was silent, but at the moment when the door of the house was opened, there was a violent shock.These solidified blood floated quickly, turning into lines one after another and rushing towards the young man standing at the door, binding his hands before he could react, making him unable to move.
The boy struggled suddenly, but then the screen changed.
It's the beginning of the new year, and the auspicious snow is falling.
On the dilapidated tower, the young man stood alone holding the piano. He raised his hand holding the bow with all his strength, trying to brush the strings and play the most basic empty string sound.
But it couldn't play.
The voice was intermittent, sometimes hoarse and rough, sometimes sharp and piercing.The bloody thread was still tied to his hands, imprisoning him, suppressing him, forcing him to be unable to move freely.
"How can I break free?" He silently asked the world.
A voice in nothingness replied: "It's useless, you can only perish in darkness."
"You can't."
"Give up the struggle."
"..."
One after another murmured together and turned into a ghostly laugh, piercing through the eardrums and stinging every nerve.The boy turned around and wanted to run, but his feet followed suit, unable to move at all.
The world is vast, and he cannot escape.
The snow is getting heavier and the sky is getting darker.
I wish I could turn into light, but I am night, and only loneliness surrounds me.
Snapped--
In the ward, a figure got up from the accompanying bed, lightly turned on the bedside lamp, and then adjusted the brightness to the darkest.
The faint yellow light shone on Xie Fei's pale face, and the young man's forehead was full of cold sweat, murmuring some words silently, digging into the quilt with his slender hands with great force, leaving ferocious scratches on the snow-white quilt .
"Good boy, it's okay." Gu Fangyan took Xie Fei's hand, lay down beside him, and embraced him in his arms.
Like a mother coaxing a young child to sleep, Gu Fangyan patted Xie Fei's back lightly. After a long time, Xie Fei's tense body finally relaxed.
The first snow of this winter in Linjiang City only fell for half a day, but it accumulated a thick layer, dyeing the whole city white.
When Xie Fei woke up, it was just dawn, and the misty skylight penetrated the clouds and shone into the room, outlining a branch of red plum planted obliquely on the window sill.He just tilted his head, and Gu Fangyan, who had been holding him all the time, followed him to wake up, raised his hand to stroke his cheek, and asked, "Are you awake? It's still early, how about some more sleep?"
Gu Fangyan's tone was sleepy, and his voice was hoarse than usual, cold and deep, falling right in Xie Fei's ear.Xie Fei turned away uncomfortably, and said: "Don't talk like that." Then asked: "Why are you on my bed?"
"You..." Gu Fangyan wanted to say that you had a nightmare last night, but he was afraid that it would remind him of bad memories, so he changed his mind and said, "I'm here to find a sense of security."
"Oh." Xie Fei lifted the quilt up, buried her face in it, and closed her eyes again.
He fell asleep again.
The temperature in the morning was colder than that in the evening, even though the room was heated, Xie Fei still flinched a bit, then turned around to find the heat source, and pressed his face to Gu Fangyan's chest.
Gu Fangyan didn't sleep after waking up.He found the phone, ordered someone to deliver two breakfasts, then read Xie Fei's electronic medical records, and then told Pei Xingyuan, who had just exchanged contact information yesterday, about Xie Fei's situation.
At eight o'clock, the head nurse came over to give Xie Fei water.
Xie Fei's condition does not require a long hospital stay.Staring at him after finishing half a bowl of fish porridge, Gu Fangyan asked, "Do you still want to go to Haicheng?"
Who knew that this guy was bullshit and said, "I don't want to take this." Gu Fangyan divided him the medicine he was going to take in the morning and put it in a clean small dish. Xie Fei pushed one of them out with a tone of voice very firm.
"Why?" Gu Fangyan asked.
"The side effects of this are the most obvious among them." Xie Fei looked serious.
Gu Fangyan: "I have read the instructions, and the side effects are not serious."
"I'll get fat."
"..."
Xie Fei is very serious: "Among the psychiatric drugs, many have side effects of obesity, but others are a matter of probability. If you take this, you will lose 5 catties in a month."
Gu Fangyan didn't expect this to be the reason, and it took a lot of effort to hold back his smile: "Five catties is nothing."
"5 catties a month, 10 catties in two months."
"Then... do more exercise?"
Xie Fei didn't listen at all, stretched out her finger, and flicked the ginger pill mercilessly, then picked up the water glass and took a sip to moisten her throat, and took the rest with warm water.
"It's okay if you don't want to eat it, and ask the doctor to change it to something that doesn't have obvious side effects." Gu Fangyan felt that he was quiet and arrogant, and looked very cute, so he didn't continue to persuade him, and raised his hand to ring the bell beside the bed.
This is a distinguished high-level VIP ward and a private hospital. The service attitude is very good. After the nurses learned about their needs, they immediately conveyed them to the attending physician. It didn't take long for the new medicine after consideration to be conveniently prescribed.
Xie Fei's condition does not require a long-term hospitalization. Although he did not express his clear intention, the weather in Linjiang City will be cloudy for a while. After the psychological counseling was over that morning, Gu Fangyan took Xie Fei to Haicheng.
With the help of drugs and a comfortable environment, Xie Fei's mood has always been calm and stable, without showing an overly negative tendency, that is, he doesn't talk too much, and he doesn't like to fight like before.
The doctor's suggestion was to go to school as usual after New Year's Day. Xie Fei also expressed his willingness to study, so on January 1th, the first day of vacation, Gu Fangyan and Xie Fei came to class 4.
The seat in the last row by the window in the classroom was always vacant, so Gu Fangyan sat directly behind Xie Fei without any hesitation.
They came at a time when they sat down, and the class bell rang just one second after they sat down, so gossip masters from all directions couldn't find a stage to display their specialties.
The first session was English class. After entering the door, the English teacher noticed Gu Fangyan in the back row, without showing any surprise, and started talking about the text straight to the point.
Xie Fei flipped the pages mechanically and slowly.During the three days of the New Year's Day holiday, he had been basking in the sun or playing around without touching a book. Now that he came back to this desk and opened this familiar book, he felt a kind of fear and fear from the bottom of his heart.
The English teacher's emotional and impassioned reading aloud into his ears and turned into thorns, one by one, one by one, piercing into his mind.
The words on the book faded, and he couldn't see them clearly no matter how hard he stared. Blinking once in a while could bring him a moment of clarity, but when those letters reached his eyes, he couldn't put them together into words.
English is Xie Fei's best subject, but he seems to have lost his ability to read, write, speak, and speak?
Xie Fei was terrified, a drop of sweat slipped from her forehead, dripping on the paper in the winter with endless rain and snow.
With a bang, the book fell to the ground, and in his ears, it was like a thunderclap.
3 minutes later, in the bathroom at the east end of the corridor.
Xie Fei supported the sink with both hands, and after she stopped retching, she turned on the faucet and poured water on her face.
The drops of water dripped, he recalled all the things just now, and smiled with his lips: "Am I very useless?" After finishing speaking, without waiting for Gu Fangyan to answer, he wiped his face, stood up straight with no expression on his face, and walked outside the door, " I'm going back."
The author has something to say:
Merry Christmas everyone~
感谢在2019-12-2323:47:25~2019-12-2422:53:59期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~
Thanks to the little angel who cast the mine: Wait for 1;
感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：行路、SAMA林炀20瓶；我一点也不胆小10瓶；曹楠、existzai5瓶；amohhh2瓶；陌大莘、咚咚咚咚、H-LinWY、喜乐、时不我与1瓶；
Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!