Rebirth of Ten Thousand Years

Chapter 20

The first time I heard my father say that there is another half-brother, how did you feel at that time?sad?Perhaps a little bit, after thoroughly recognizing the impossibility between father and mother, suddenly a younger brother was airborne, but he was not the mother's child.pain?Perhaps a little bit, to be precise, it should be a loss, the father who never expresses his emotions too much, was so happy because of a child who appeared suddenly, even at the moment of death, he asked You have to take good care of that child yourself.

In fact, the most common feeling is, ah, that’s how it feels—because I’m used to not caring about it, so even if the strong feelings that should be expressed, I don’t know what has been wiped out.He is Mu Qin's child, that very gentle woman, the only woman who has really settled in his father's inner world.At that time, I still fantasized about repairing the rift between my parents, thinking that all this was the fault of that woman.

However, after driving away the woman, life is still the same. My mother travels all over the world for her collections, and my father still has a lover and never-ending work by his side. The housekeeper of each character, and the house that looks empty at any time.If I knew that woman would leave me a younger brother, maybe I would have changed my mind for a possible family member.

The first time I saw that child, I was very shocked. Although I saw his appearance from the photos, it was completely different from the reality.The child in the photo is smiling brightly, as if it is a wonderful thing to live in this world; I am even a little jealous of this child who can still live so happily despite the blows of life.But, I was wrong, and very wrong.

Because I didn't know if I should disturb the happy life of that child, I didn't choose to meet him directly, but let my father's personal lawyer contact the child first.I sat in the car and watched from afar the lawyer leading the child out of a smoky Internet cafe.The moment I saw him, I was so shocked that I didn't even know how to think. The pale complexion and lifeless eyes that only seriously ill patients have are the same as when my fantasy was completely shattered. ...

I ordered the driver to drive away as if I was running away. Although there was no abnormal expression on my face, I knew that I was afraid, afraid of this child, and afraid of that emotional self.I couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief to hear the lawyer say that the child had declined the offer to visit his father at the cemetery, so that I would have a reason not to meet the child.

The next day, I flew back to the home where I was the only one. I thought returning to a familiar place would calm my heart, but my mother who did not attend the funeral suddenly visited.The topic was still the child. She said that her father had violated the agreement between them. Only she could give birth to the Xu family's blood, and that child had no right to inherit the Xu family's property; I slapped her across the face. According to the agreement, all my father's inheritance should belong to my name, and only the blood of the Xu family born by her is eligible to inherit.

I politely rejected my furious mother, who had already announced to the world the hypocrisy of their marriage by not attending her father's funeral.I have no objection to my father's decision. That child is my younger brother by blood, and I promised my father that I will take care of him.

Letting Li Jian go back to China to be that child's personal butler is probably the most irrational thing I have ever done since I was sensible.Such a child needs the warmth of the family and the care of others to come out of the nightmare of living; however, I will ask Li Jian, who will definitely abandon his personal feelings at work, to go to that child's side .

From Li Jian's report, it has been proved time and time again that this is a child who needs to be cared for; but I still choose to ignore it, and Li Jian also chose to deal with it in the same way as me.This may be the beginning of all mistakes.Gradually, the child also gave up looking for warmth, but lived like a walking dead; this kind of report sounded too plain, I asked Li Jian to stop describing the child's daily life, and let him have no important Don't bother me anymore.

For a long time, there was no news of that child, and he was gradually forgotten at work.Even at the end, even when the secretary reminded me that the child's birthday was coming soon, and whether I needed to choose a gift, I just replied casually and let her figure it out.Time can erase everything, especially cheap and fickle things like feelings.That child is just a simple job left to me by my father, and Li Jian will handle everything very well... Anyway, as long as his living conditions are not unsatisfactory, it can be regarded as fulfilling his father's entrustment.

It is said that the child found his mother dead and had a total mental breakdown.This is the first time in nearly three years that Li Jian contacted me because of that child.I just lightly told him to find a better psychiatrist to enlighten the child; losing a woman who was no longer by his side was just a temporary blow. Will recover slowly.

However, I seemed to be too self-important at the time, and that child suddenly became a rebellious and passionate social youth.It's not bad to be energetic. Nowadays, the children of rich families play more crazier than the other, and he hasn't caused any major troubles. Even if there is a trouble, just find someone to settle it.For those who give up on themselves, I have never bothered to save them, and I have no reason to convince myself to save them.

After Li Jian told me that the child took drugs, I didn't hear about him until he died.The person who called me was a movie star. I heard from him that before the death of Mu Zhong, my blood brother, he was by his side.I am Mu Zhong's only relative in this world, so he still decided to let me know.

At the moment when I heard the news of his death, my mind went blank, and I was stunned for a long time before I suddenly realized that, just today, I lost my last relative in this world.I was obviously alone at my mother's funeral, why did I not realize this until now?

I hurried back to the country in order to hold a complete funeral for him—a funeral without relatives present is incomplete.Looking at him lying in the coffin, covered by paper flowers, I suddenly felt an unspeakable sadness in my heart, accompanied by guilt and remorse, which invaded my whole body bit by bit.

God gave me a chance to have a real home, and I missed it forever because of my fear.God gave him a chance to bring his heart back to life, but because of my timidity, he really died.How humorous and ironic all this is.If time can go back to before everything happened, I will definitely make up for all the mistakes I have made in this life.

Unexpectedly, I wanted to pick a birthday gift for him on a whim, but in the end I still didn't make it on the schedule...

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Human nature, I thought I had lost it long ago. When I attended my mother's funeral, I didn't feel much except numbness.Maybe it's because of her too casual personality, or maybe it's because she has long expected that such a day will come. For what is destined to happen, I will not choose other ways except to accept it calmly.But this time, maybe, I guessed wrong...

After attending the child's funeral—maybe he should not be called a child, although in my impression, he is still the cowardly child who seeks warmth.He is my half-brother, Mu Zhong, who never met me until his death, my last relative.Emotions don't have much effect other than disturbing reason, so I thought that if I had fulfilled my responsibilities as a family member, everything could be easily let go.What's more, there is not much family affection between us to speak of.

As soon as the funeral was over, I entrusted the cemetery to maintain his grave according to the highest standards, and I immediately left this place full of memories of death-my father and him are buried here, and my mother's ashes are scattered into the sea. Come here again, maybe it's time for me to sleep forever.Back in the familiar working environment, although I lived as before, I vaguely felt that something had changed.

Probably, it was because I got used to other assistants in the past few years, and there was something wrong when I saw Li Jian coming back for a while—every time I saw Li Jian, I would inevitably think of the people he had taken care of in the past few years. A gift that you have to get out of the car to buy when you pass by the mall.In the plan, everything under his name was to be disposed of immediately, but when I returned to the villa he never wanted to go back to, I kept all of them by mistake, even, It also added funds from the investment department of Huanyu Film and Television...

Before he died, he had played a small role in an ancient war film, and met the star who had been by his side until his death.From Li Jian's recollection, he can vaguely infer his enthusiasm for this industry.Even in order to fulfill his last wish, it is necessary for that star to go on the road of acting smoothly, isn't it?

After realizing that the room was already filled with all kinds of gifts for children, it dawned on me that I had developed such a bad habit during his death—and these gifts were all given to ten children. Children under the age of [-] should be suitable, how bad do I have social skills?He seemed to have filled a whole closet with the gifts that his secretary sent him before, and he obviously didn't like them at all, but every birthday, he would dig out all of them, pile them up on the bed, and fall asleep with those gifts in his arms.Hearing Li Jian talk about this matter, I was actually a little happy, but what followed was an indescribable loss...

In the drawer of the study, there is always a piece of information about him. It is the one that my father showed me before he died. That photo is what I own and the only thing that belongs to him.I have never missed the existence of a person so much. Perhaps it was just because I suddenly realized that people need feelings to maintain their lives; or it was just because every time I saw Li Jian, I would unconsciously ask about the child, so Gradually, I got used to spending every day dreaming about his past life.

Whenever I feel tired because of work, I will take out that photo from the drawer, rub it, look at that bright smile, and imagine how everything will be if I can fill in those missing scenes .I think, I may be a little bit obsessed - Li Jian even proposed to find a psychiatrist to enlighten me, but I refused - this kind of lifestyle is very good, when thinking of him, I feel very warm in my heart, as if Owning all the best things in this world makes people obsessed.

Two years later, the star he valued became the No.1 Chinese actor who won the world's best actor, and since then he has started his development abroad.Without that person's company, he will feel lonely, right?I heard that that person visits him at his grave every week. Although I know that they are just friends who seem to have an ambiguous relationship, I have a subtle possessive desire in my heart that I can't let go of—like being robbed of my playmates. Child, hiding in a dark corner alone, sulking alone.

I immediately started to move the company's headquarters back to the country I should call my motherland. Before the star finished his domestic trip, he returned to the home that belonged to my father, me, and him who died in the cemetery.I lived in his room, didn't change a single thing in the room, just slept there at night.It's no wonder he doesn't like such an empty place...

Back here, I seem to have developed a new habit, which is to study everything in the room where he rarely lived.Although the clothes in the cupboard and the gifts purchased by the secretary accounted for more than half, there were still some things that even Li Jian couldn't name.The computer desk was very clean, and he asked him to make that computer into a funeral object. He said that he was afraid that he would be bored on Huangquan Road, and that he could use computer games to relieve boredom. Li Jian had once witnessed the whole process of his playing games. It's a bit horrible, um, it's roughly the same as I am now-this is probably the inheritance of the Xu family.

Every mobile phone he has ever used is placed in the drawer. Almost all the mobile phones have a lot of scratches, probably because they are not used too often, and they always fall on the ground when answering the phone; so Li Jian usually has the same mobile phone model. Will buy a few colors, so that he can change at any time.In the phone's address book, there was only Li Jian at the beginning, and slowly added a few people who could be known as punks by their nicknames, until finally Li Jian was alone again.I was surprised that there was no communication record of that celebrity. Li Jian said that since he met that celebrity, he has never changed his mobile phone. The last mobile phone he used is still in the hands of that celebrity.

Next to the mobile phone, there is a small iron box, which is full of bank cards that he never takes out.Li Jian said that he used to use the small change left by his mother, and would let Li Jian deal with it at other times, but he had written two checks to the crew he played in, and the handwriting was not his.I seem to have gradually discovered his lazy nature, I don't know if it's an illusion...

The porcelain bowl he used to drink medicine in was stored in the bedside table, and there were still a lot of medicine residues in it, which was said to be used to commemorate the most unforgettable time in his life.I heard that although he frowned while drinking the medicine, he never complained.A letter written only in an envelope, addressed to her dead mother and our father; and a neat row of men's perfumes he would never use, each in an open gift box ... After counting, there are exactly five gift boxes. If it is the birthday present that I have been planning to give me for these years, it is just right.

Although I have been able to visit my father in the cemetery, every time I only dare to look at the direction where he is buried from a distance. Anyway, he still has the star who has never stopped and still insists on accompanying him every week; and I No one even has the courage to face reality, so he is only suitable for watching from afar... Anyway, he doesn't care anymore, does he? ...