My canary flew away

Chapter 51 The Silent Night

The TV is still lively and lively, with a joyous scene.

But in front of the TV, Shang Yu's parents froze in place for a long time because of his son's words.

Shang Yu's heart broke, and he continued: "Dad, Mom, I..."

Before he could finish his sentence, he heard a soft sound.Mother Shang put the chopsticks on the bowl, stood up without saying a word, and walked towards the bedroom.

Shang Yu immediately stood up, wanting to go after him.But Father Shang stopped him and said, "Xiaoyu, you are too...sudden."

Shang Yu said, "It was sudden, but I still want you to know."

"Do you have to choose such a date?" Dad Shang asked, "You don't come here for half a year, and you finally came back. Do you know how happy your mother is? After you called before, she was all day long. I was very happy, and everyone said that my son was coming back. But what about you, oh, you deliberately don’t want your mother to have a good year, don’t you?”

Suppressing this sentence will make Shang Yu stunned.

Father Shang frowned impatiently.

Shang Yu was tall, half a head taller than his father.Standing beside his father now, he saw his father's arms puff up a little because of his anger.Such a picture reminded him of when he was very ignorant when he was young.After the tiles were exposed in the upper room, he was grabbed and beaten by his father.

That was when he was in the first and second grades of elementary school. After that, his father never beat him again.He also maintains a supportive and even conniving attitude towards Shang Yu's hobbies outside of school.

Shang Yu thought about it later, and felt that he should fight when he was a child.Little brat, I don’t know the heights of the sky and the depth of the earth. After watching TV programs, I dare to stand on the roof with an umbrella and try to “land” down.If it wasn't for being caught in advance, who knows what will happen in the future.

He remembered that at that time, his father's arm was like this.Summon all the strength and slap up.But now, my father didn't move.

Shang Yu said: "Dad, I'm not. I'm just afraid that if I drag it down, I won't dare to tell you when I leave."

Father Shang looked at him, and the father and son looked at each other. Shang Yu saw his father's back that was more bent than before, and the white hair between his temples.

He thought, Dad is really old.

Father Shang said, "Okay, you're a big star, and we don't care about you. It's dinner, you eat first, I'll go and see your mother."

He said, turned around, and also went to the bedroom.Shang Yu took a step forward, but Father Shang stopped suddenly and shouted sharply, "Don't follow."

Shang Yu's footsteps stopped.

He was at a loss.

Shang's father didn't turn his head, but Shang Yu could hear a sob in his father's voice.

He couldn't move anymore, he just felt that the air around him turned into a gel-like texture, pressing on his heart, making him unable to move, and even breathing was much more difficult.

He watched his father walk into the bedroom step by step.Knocked on the door, but didn't move inside.Then the father whispered, "It's me."

Mother just opened the door.

There was no light inside, and the room was dark.The light from the living room shone through, and the outline of my mother's face could be seen.Shang Yu clearly saw that his mother's face was full of tears.

He saw his father enter the door, and the door closed again in front of him.

Shang Yu seemed to be standing on a high mountain, with an abyss in front of him and behind him.

And he walked alone, difficult and lonely.

At this moment, the pain it brought to Shang Yu was even better than when he saw the words "Shang Yu" and "plagiarism" being trending together.

At that moment, he had a clear conscience, and he knew that he could solve the hardship.But at this time, he was standing on the cliff, with a lover who could not be chased in front of him, and the loss of his parents under his feet.

He wants to chase Guan Cheng, so he chooses to take the most difficult step.He had fantasies that family affection could support him.But at this moment, the illusion is shattered, and the parents are really... hard to accept.

It's not like the storm that preceded the album.At that time, it was life or death, there was always a definite number.But at this moment, Shang Yu didn't know how to go forward.

He stood there for quite a while, until his legs started to ache again, Shang Yu finally stepped back and sat down on the sofa again.

His knees began to feel sore and prickly, and Shang Yu thought in a daze: It will probably rain tomorrow.

Until very late, the parents did not come out of the room.The food was much colder, Shang Yu thought about it, and knocked on the door, saying: "Dad, Mom, you have to eat."

The Spring Festival Gala came to the end of the first language program, and the characters in it began to laugh and wish everyone a happy new year.

He heard footsteps in the door, and his father came to open the door.Shang Yu glanced in through the crack of the door.He smelled the smoke coming towards his face, and he could imagine how much his father had smoked in a short period of time.And my mother used to fan the air in front of her nose whenever my father smoked, telling the old businessman to quit smoking quickly, but now she doesn't move.

Shang Yu whispered, "Dad."

Dad Shang said: "Well, you go out to stay for a night first, and your mother and I have to think about it."

Shang Yu was taken aback.

It was as if something had suddenly shattered in his heart.

His lips trembled, helpless and in pain, and he said hastily: "Okay, I'll go out."

Father Shang looked at him, feeling even more powerless.Shang Yu turned around and went to the room to get the suitcase, and when he came out again, the door of his parents' bedroom was closed again.

He told himself: Mom and Dad just need a little time, they will accept it.

But there was also a thought that said: What if they really just can't take it?

You hurt Brother Guan, and you're going to hurt them again.

Still on such a special day.

On the first day of the new year, the road was empty.

Shang Yu dragged his suitcase and walked slowly on the road.

There are closed shops on the side of the road. He remembers that when he was a child, he loved eating the crab paste made by one of the proprietresses herself.Now the facade is still there, but the boss goes home to celebrate the New Year.

Walking like this, he walked through the years when he was held by his parents when he was young, and went to and from school together.

It was already dark, and finally, Shang Yu stopped by the side of the road.

There was a street lamp above his head, and the dim light enveloped him.

Shang Yu was wearing a scarf, a peaked cap, and a pair of decorative black-rimmed glasses on the bridge of his nose.He sat on the suitcase and took out his cell phone.

The gloves are fingerless, and Shang Yu's fingers swipe across the screen to click into Guan Cheng's circle of friends.He saw Guan Cheng send a very polite "Happy New Year everyone, all the best", and then he didn't say anything else.Looking forward, it is also cold and lonely.

Shang Yu thought: I really miss him.

He moved his fingers, wanting to talk to someone, but he knew that he was not qualified to talk to Guan Cheng.He was really wronged, and felt that all emotions surged up, and the world was gray.In the end, Shang Yu only posted a few words in Moments.

He said: I miss you so much.

Think again: the past two years, no, not just two years.After Brother Guan's parents passed away, how did he spend the New Year?

With this thought, Shang Yu felt a little more courage in his heart.

He rubbed his cheeks, put away his phone, went to find a hotel nearby, and checked in.

The front desk faced the ID card, looked at Shang Yu, and then looked at the name on the ID card, his eyes widened a lot.Shang Yu blinked his eyes and said with a smile: "There are relatives at home, and if they can't stay, I will be 'arranged' out. Don't tell others."

The front desk looked excited, and after checking in, he asked if he could give himself an autograph.

Shang Yu said, "Okay."

After he finished signing, his smile was still on his face.When I entered the room, my emotions relaxed, and I was enveloped by the overwhelming loneliness again.

Shang Yu almost stayed up all night.

The only good thing about it is that he has written a new song.

I haven't decided on a name yet, but I have a few options: "Twelve O'Clock", "Silent Night"...

His heart was heavy, and in the end, after barely sleeping for two hours, his phone rang.

After waking up for the first time, Shang Yu was a little dazed, thinking that he was still at home.I stretched out my hand to get the phone, and when I encountered the cold air, I gradually remembered what happened yesterday.

In this situation, he was almost pleasantly surprised when he saw the word "Dad" on the caller ID.

Shang Yu sat up suddenly, cleared his throat, tried to show his best state, and called out: "Dad."

Father Shang was silent for a while, and said, "Come back, your aunt is coming to our house to celebrate the New Year."

Shang Yu said "um", all the emotions from last night faded at this moment.He went to check out, walking like a wind.Go all the way, go home.

After entering the door, Shang Yu realized that he was hungry.His eyes were bright, and he felt that his parents really loved him the most, and there was no reason for his distraught last night.

However, after shouting "Dad, Mom, I'm back", Shang Yu belatedly realized something was wrong.

Mother didn't answer him.

My father was just smoking a cigarette, and said to Shang Yu: "Put the box away. We pretended that you didn't talk about what happened yesterday. Today, if you want to mention this matter in front of your aunt, you can simply Let's go out."

Shang Yu froze in place.

The mother glanced over and hummed softly, still in a bad mood.

Shang Yu belatedly realized: Yes, how could it be that simple?

Parents just don't want to "lose face" in front of relatives and friends.

His mood, which had been floating on the clouds before, began to sink.

Walking from the door to her own house, on the way, I heard my mother complaining to my father in a low voice: "I won't tell you all, just say that he was called away by some TV station to perform a show. There will always be these things. What is he calling back for? Adding trouble to me?"

Shang Yu felt cold all over.

Father said: "Okay, I'm back now, what I said before is good, there are so many things."

The mother raised her voice a little: "The son I raised for 20 years turned out to be gay, I..."

The tone is disgusted.

Shang Yu pressed his hand on the doorknob of the room, and his body trembled slightly.

He told himself: It just takes a little time.

According to the original plan, he would stay at home for four days, and then, as his mother said, he would go to record the Lantern Festival Gala of several TV stations.In addition, a new concert is also on the agenda.

During the few days at home, when relatives came, or when they went out to other homes to pay New Year's greetings, the parents always smiled.When I meet neighbors on the road, I can greet them with a smile.

But as long as there is only a family of three, the atmosphere suddenly turns cold.

On the night before Shang Yu left, he was drying clothes on the balcony while his father came over to smoke.

In the darkness, Shang Yu realized that his father should have something to say to him.But until he finished drying all the clothes, his father didn't speak.

Shang Yu took a deep breath and called, "Dad."

Coincidentally, the cigarette in Father Shang's hand also burned to the end.

The spark was gone, and Dad Shang asked, "Can you change your liking for men?"

Shang Yu closed his eyes and said, "It cannot be changed."

Father Shang sighed and asked again, "Who do you like?"

Shang Yu said: "He treats me very well, I really like him and want to be with him."

Father Shang asked, "Who is it?"

Shang Yu said: "He is a very good person, others will think that I am not good enough for him."

Father Shang became impatient, and asked again, "Who is it?"

Shang Yu's heart was "thumping".

He was struggling at this moment, guessing why his father had to ask for an answer.Shang Yu had a very bad premonition. In the end, he gritted his teeth and said, "Dad, you and Mom can't even accept that I like a man. What's the point of knowing who he is?"

Father Shang laughed, his voice full of indifference and sarcasm.

"What's the matter, are you still afraid that your mother and I will embarrass him?"

Shang Yu said: "No! I just—"

Dad Shang said: "You are 'not worthy' of others, so how dare we do something, right?"

The author has something to say: Shang Xiaoyu: I also want Brother Guan to hug me today TT

Mr. Guan:?not familiar with you

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