Little brother!whole one?

Chapter 51 The cruel truth

In four days, I will be in the operating room.The operation time is tentatively set at [-]:[-] in the morning.

Yu Shuxian found that he was even more nervous than Yan Cheng who was about to enter the operating room, and he didn't sleep at all last night.Later, seeing that it was dawn, he glanced at his phone, it was 04:30.

Yan Cheng on the hospital bed slept soundly, and he didn't wake up much that night.Yu Shulian really couldn't lie down anymore, sat up, walked gently to the hospital bed and looked at Yan Cheng's face carefully.

He reached out and touched his face lightly.

Yan Cheng's skin is fair and delicate, no pores can be seen even at close range, the bridge of the nose is straight, and the eyelashes are long, the appearance of sleeping peacefully like this really makes people feel pity.

Yu Shulian withdrew his hand and walked out of the ward on tiptoe.He will be in the operating room in less than four hours, let him sleep well.

Yu Shu got out of the ward and walked in the empty and silent corridor until he reached the end of the corridor.There is a whole glass wall, and you can see the morning sky outside.Yu Shulian really wanted to smoke a cigarette at this time, but he had quit smoking for many years, even if he wanted to smoke, he didn't.

Yu Shulian didn't know what he was thinking, his mind seemed to go blank, and he just stood there staring at the sky outside which lit up little by little.

He stood until five o'clock, his legs were already stiff.

Yu Shuxian withdrew his gaze, turned around and walked to another ward.In the past few days, he took care of Yan Cheng, but he didn't pay much attention to Jing Shuo.However, after arriving at Jing Shuo's ward, Yu Shu was a little surprised, because Jing Shuo didn't sleep at all with his eyes open.

Hearing the voice, Jing Shuo turned to look at the person with some difficulty, and then smiled: "Brother."

Xiaofei sleeps in the cubicle with the child, and Jing Shuo is the only one in the ward.The soundproofing of the room is very good, so Yu Shulian is not afraid that his voice will disturb Xiao Fei inside.

Yu Shulian smiled and walked forward: "Woke up so early?"

"Can't sleep."

"Brother, help me adjust the head of the bed, I'm going to die of pain lying down like this all the time."

"Okay." Yu Shulian stepped forward to help Jing Shuo raise the head of the bed skillfully.

Jing Shuo's current appearance... Except for the outline of his eyebrows and eyes, he can still see his previous appearance, and he can no longer find a little bit of his former vigor.The multiple consecutive chemotherapy treatments had nearly emptied his body, and now he looked like a puppet hanging on his breath.Jing Shuo wore a wire cap on his head, covering his bald head.His sunken cheeks, sickly white skin, and deep-set eye sockets gave him a terrifying appearance at first glance.

Because he was about to receive the bone marrow donated by Yan Cheng, he had to undergo chemotherapy several times before the formal operation, and he could receive the bone marrow transplant only after his bone marrow function and immunity were basically destroyed.Yu Shulian couldn't imagine what a tormenting process this was.

Just like the darkness before dawn, it is always painful and long.

"How are you doing these days?" Yu Shuxian asked softly.

Jing Shuo smiled: "Chemotherapy is quite painful. But it's all about the phoenix nirvana, and I hope I can be reborn from the ashes."

Yu Shulian also smiled: "Well, definitely."

At this time, the room was still dark, and the sky outside was not completely bright yet.After the voice fell, the two brothers suddenly fell silent.

Jing Shuo looked at Yu Shuxian, and suddenly asked, "Brother, are you unable to sleep because you are worried about Yan Cheng's operation today?"

Yu Shu was stunned for a while, but did not answer.But his silence already answered the question well.

"Brother, it seems that you really like him."

Yu Shuxian felt a little uncomfortable, especially after knowing the relationship between Yan Cheng and Jing Shuo.Any discussion between the two brothers about anything related to Yan Cheng would make the atmosphere extremely awkward.

"Stop talking about this, you have a good rest, you will be fine soon..."

"Brother." Jing Shuo ignored Yu Shuxian's words, "Actually, I lied to you."

Yu Shu's spine stiffened: "What do you mean?"

Jing Shuo took a deep breath: "Actually, not only Yan Cheng, but also you are the ones who have successfully matched each other."

Yu Shulian's expression was completely frozen on his face, and his eyes were fixed on Jing Shuo.

"Yan Cheng came to me that day, and he told me about it. He said that donating bone marrow would be a very painful process, and he didn't want you to suffer this, so he asked me to help him lie to you."

Yu Shulian heard the sound of something breaking, and menacing pain swept through his heart.He supported the back of the chair to make himself sit still.

"Also, he and I are not ex-lovers at all. That's all my nonsense, and there has never been such a thing." The smile on Jing Shuo's face was very weak and cold, "Actually, my entanglement with him Much heavier than that."

Yu Shulian felt his head hurt, but his thinking was unprecedentedly clear.He knew that the mystery that seemed to be there was finally going to be unraveled.But at this moment, he was unprecedentedly calm.

Yu Shulian closed his eyes and said in a low voice, "What's going on?"

Jing Shuo rubbed the sore corners of his eyes, raised his face and looked at Yu Shulian.

"Brother, I actually didn't like you when I was young. At that time, you hated me and didn't like to talk to me, so I thought naively: Then I don't like you either! But in my heart, I still admire you Excellent big brother. I remember that in the first year of junior high school, I was blackmailed by two high school students. When you found out, you beat them up in the alley without saying a word. If you let me know, you will come to them if you have anything to do. At that time, I was thinking, it turns out that being protected by my brother is such a feeling, it’s not bad.”

Jing Shuo's eyes were gentle and moving, as if he was recalling some beautiful past: "Later when the schoolmates found out about this, they were surprised that Yu Shulian, who was famous in the fourth middle school, turned out to be my elder brother. Brother, you don't know, then For a while, when I met everyone, I said Yu Shulian was my elder brother, and I showed off everywhere, making other students envious."

"I know that you don't want to get close to me because of your parents. When I grow up, I am sensible. I think that my parents can't give you the care and affection. I have to make up for it. Who made you my big brother? You You must think I’m weird, right? You’re so lukewarm to me, I still insist on sticking my face to your cold ass. In fact, brother, you may not know that during the darkest period of my life, without you, I probably won't stick with it."

Yu Shulian frowned and looked up at him.

"When I was an undergraduate, my tutor introduced me to Cheng's house to give supplementary lessons to Yan Cheng who was still in high school. I could be regarded as his tutor. During that time, Yan Cheng confessed to me, but I refused. I don't like men, and even Kind of disgusted. Then I quit my job. I thought it was over, but it was just beginning. I was tricked by Yan Cheng and his friends, drugged, almost raped. The last moment I smashed Yan Cheng’s head with a glass ashtray by the bedside of the hotel room, and opened a scoop on him, and I remember he had two stitches afterwards. I used this method to escape being humiliated.”

Yu Shuxian listened to Jing Shuo's calm tone narrating the past that he had never heard before, and he felt chills all over his body, and his blood seemed to flow backwards.His face was paler than Jing Shuo, as stiff as a sculpture.

"This incident hit me hard and almost shattered all my pride and self-esteem. So I decided to sue Yan Cheng and his accomplices. Whether it is the crime of obscenity or attempted rape, no matter what the crime, I will Let them go to jail and pay for their mistakes. I was desperate at that time. I was not afraid of being threatened and framed by the family of Yan Cheng’s friend named An. I was determined to drag them to hell. Later I will I stopped because the Cheng family begged me. In fact, it was a request rather than a gentle threat. I still remember the faces of Yan Cheng's father and brother. Although they looked guilty, they still hoped that I Let their son go, to put it bluntly, they are protecting that little bastard. Seeing my firm attitude, Yan Cheng finally cried and knelt down in front of me, begging me to give his son a chance. If you go to prison, Yan Cheng Cheng's life was over. I was numb."

Jing Shuo looked at Yu Shuxian with a faint smile: "Brother, I was very confused at that time, I thought I shouldn't be shaken by the tears of my enemy's mother, I shouldn't be so kind. They are so hateful and bad, I should let them taste The consequences. I really didn’t know what to do, so I went to you later. At that time, you hadn’t bought the house in Ark New City, and you were still living in the old rented one-bedroom apartment on Qingnian Road.”

Yu Shulian frowned, he had a vague impression, but he couldn't remember exactly what happened that day.

"I bought you a beer that day, and talked to you a lot. I asked you jokingly, if a dog bites me, should I bite back? You told me not only to bite me back, but also to hit me with a stick until the dog bites me. It doesn't dare to open its mouth. But since you want to hit it, you must kill it. As long as you keep your breath, it will come back sooner or later. If you can't kill it, you should avoid it and make yourself stronger. It will see you on the road later, I only dare to lower my head with my tail between my legs. Your words made me clear for a moment, and then I stayed away from the Cheng family and that group of people. I want to make myself outstanding. My life cannot be ruined by a few rubbish. Brother, maybe those words were just casually said by you, but to me, they are extremely important..."

Yu Shulian looked at him quietly, even though the surface was calm, but he knew that his heart was like a rough sea.He'd rather never have heard of it.

Jing Shuo, who looked gentle and polite on the surface, had experienced such a dark past...and none of them knew it.The most frightening thing is that the source of all the pain Jing Shuo suffered was his pillow.

How ironic?

It took Yu Shu a long time to find his own voice: "I'm sorry, I should care more about you..."

"Brother." Jing Shuo shook his head gently, "Don't blame yourself, it's not your fault. I decided to confess all this to you, and I didn't want to see your guilt. I decided to hide this matter myself. Don't blame any of you. Don't do it."

Yu Shulian's eye sockets felt sore, and his throat tightened, as if someone had choked him.

"In my eyes, Yan Cheng is a complete bastard. Regardless of whether it was his subjective will or not, it has nothing to do with him. That's why I will do everything possible to prevent him from approaching you. I don't want you to be killed in the end." He hurts. I don’t allow him to say a word to you about this secret past, which may be to protect my dignity in the end. But during this time, I found that maybe he really cares about you, and you... also Cares about him. I hate men with men, but if it's your choice, I'll only support you."

"Don't say..."

"No, brother, I want to say." Jing Shuo said slowly, "Do you know? On the day Yan Cheng discussed with me to let me accept his donation, I asked him, did he want to beg you for saving my life like this? I locked the secret and never told you? Guess how he answered?"

The author has something to say: jj seems to have smoked, I will post it again~