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Chapter 125 Am I Still Shen Yang

"??? Brother?" Yuan Hua was startled, Shen Yang had never hugged him so dependently and intimately, he turned to look at Shen Yang.

"Cook your meal!" Shen Yang snorted, pressed his neck to keep him from moving, and said, "Let me hug you for a while."

"..." Yuan Hua was a little anxious, held Shen Yang's hand with one hand, and stirred the vegetables in the pot a few more times. When they were almost cooked, he turned off the fire and put them on the plate.

Seeing this, Shen Yang let go of Yuan Hua, exited the kitchen in a few steps, sat at the dining table and waited for him to serve the meal.

In fact, the relationship between the two of them is really simple, just like ordinary couples, eating and sleeping together, sticking together when there is nothing to do.But Shenyang felt different, or he thought they should not be like ordinary couples, at least, their life should not be like that of Fomi and Luo Li.

Fomi and Luo Li...

Thinking of these two couples, Shen Yang sighed again, who would have thought that Director Luo of the Luo Group was like that when he was at home?Cooking, cleaning, taking care of the children, making clothes and shoes for the family... He has never seen her do anything that has nothing to do with the family!I heard that she only had a name in the Luo Group, and all the affairs of the company were handed over to the CEO she had hired back. She would only come forward when she encountered something that required her to come forward.

She is not a qualified group boss, she is just a qualified wife and mother.

More than qualified, she is an excellent wife and mother, and an exemplary housewife.If someone gave prizes to housewives, she would definitely be the top prize. After all, there is no housewife who makes clothes for her husband stitch by stitch and puts the soles of shoes like her these days.

In Luo Li's world, there are only Buddha Mi and the children.

As for Fomi, he has his own job, his own dream, his own world, and his own study... He will go on business trips for several months without going home, and has no contact with him, yet he wants to see Luo Li as soon as he returns home.

As for Yuan Hua...

Shen Yang felt uncomfortable.

He was already sure that Yuan Hua, like Buddha Mi, was a selfish patriarch.He only wanted him to revolve around him alone, he thought that he was the only one in his world, and wished that without him, he would starve to death...

It is undeniable that this is love, Shen Yang understands, this is at least a form of expression of love.

But this is not the life he wants.

The more Shen Yang thought about it, the clearer he became that this was really not the life he wanted to live.

He should have himself in his day.

No, he had to have himself in his day.

He is Shen Yang.

If he can't find it himself, he is still Shen Yang!

"Brother?" Yuan Hua reached out and stroked Shen Yang's forehead, worried: "What's wrong with you? Are you uncomfortable?"

"No." Shen Yang said, and while speaking, he picked up a piece of fish for Yuan Hua, and said, "How many days are you going?"

"..." Yuan Huamo picked up the rice in the bowl and said softly, "I don't know either. Brother, don't be angry, I can't push this away..."

"It's okay, I'm not angry," Shen Yang shook his head, and said indifferently, "I understand. Because sometimes I can't explain it too clearly to you."

"……elder brother……"

"You don't understand it."

"..." Yuan Hua pouted to express his dissatisfaction, and finally laughed to himself, and said, "Actually, even if I don't understand, I'd like to listen to you and say more."

"Your voice is very nice, warm, stable, and hard, which makes me feel very comfortable and at ease, no, it's heartwarming." Yuan Hua put down the bowl as he said, he had already finished eating, and propped his chin to watch Shen Yang eat , murmured: "I can watch you, listen to you, and be with you 360 hours a day, 24 days a year, and I don't want to be separated from you for a moment!"

"Sweet talk." Shen Yang sneered, put down his chopsticks, and said, "What about day 360?"

"360 and five days a year..." Yuan Hua panicked, "Of course I miss you on the 360th and sixth day—"

"You, you love to exaggerate!" Shen Yang nodded at him from the air, and was about to enter the kitchen with an empty bowl. Go, clean up the dining table and kitchen quickly.

This is wrong!

Yuan Hua was flustered, did he say something wrong?But what did you say?Did something wrong?How did this happen?

"Brother...Brother..." Yuan Hua walked out of the kitchen anxiously, and saw that Shen Yang was not waiting for him at the door or in the bathroom like before, but was sitting like a meditating Taoist. Sitting on the sofa, he panicked even more.

This is so weird!

Yuan Hua wiped the water stains on his hands, hurriedly took off the apron, and walked over cautiously.He wanted to be next to Shen Yang and sit beside him intimately, but Shen Yang put on a look like a long time ago that strangers should not enter, which made him dare not make mistakes, so he had to sit on the carpet opposite Shen Yang Sitting down, tremblingly said: "Brother, what's wrong with you?"

"Did I do something wrong or say something wrong?" Yuan Hua asked urgently: "Tell me, I will change, I will definitely change, and I promise not to do it again—"

Seeing Shen Yang waving his hand, Yuan Hua's voice stopped abruptly, worried.

"You're not wrong, it's my fault." Shen Yang said.

Hearing this, Yuan Hua was even more worried!

Wouldn't that be... I don't even have the chance and direction to change?

"Are you happy these days?"

"Happy!" Yuan Hua hurriedly said, "Happy, brother, I like you!"

"I like you too." Shen Yang said, "But I'm not happy."

"???" Yuan Hua asked blankly, "Why?"

"I think we need to reconsider our relationship." Shen Yang said seriously: "Although we like each other, this should be love—"

"What, what should it be? This is love!" Yuan Hua interrupted him, and when he heard him reconsider, Yuan Hua almost went crazy. Does this mean breaking up?

why?

Why?

He disagrees!

"Okay, this is love," Shen Yang said word by word, "but I don't like it."

What does it mean?

Yuan Hua was speechless!

"What's wrong with me, tell me, I'll change it! Why..." Yuan Hua said, "Why don't you like it?"

"No self, I don't like it." Shen Yang said seriously: "I can't do anything except wait for you. It makes me feel ridiculous. I don't like this sense of restraint."

"You don't want to wait for me?" Yuan Hua couldn't believe his ears, stood up in a huff, and said in a very puzzled way: "I've been waiting for five years, why didn't you wait this time? You can wait when you haven't explained, why? This time I told you, but you are not willing to wait?"

"Not this one."

"Which one is that waiting?" Yuan Hua's anxious voice changed, and he said, "I really don't know when I can come back, maybe a day or two, maybe the whole winter vacation, but at least I will definitely come back when school starts, why don't you waiting for me?"

"I said it's not waiting!" Shen Yang impatiently interrupted Yuan Hua's questioning, pointing to the carpet for him to sit down.

Yuan Hua resented, stuck his stubborn neck, and sat down cross-legged, waiting for Shen Yang to explain why he didn't wait for him, why he was unhappy, and why he wanted to break up.

"Are you happy these days?"

"Happy!" Yuan Hua said, "Brother, I like you!"

"I like you too." Shen Yang said, "But I'm not happy."

"..." Yuan Hua looked at Shen Yang sadly, since he likes it, why didn't he wait?No, why repeat it?

"I go to bed at eleven, come at six, we have sex and eat." Seeing that Yuan Hua was about to speak, Shen Yang raised his hand to stop him, not letting him speak, he pushed his glasses on the bridge of his nose, and continued: " You start the exam at 11:30, and I will see you off, and then sit in the car and wait for you. At 02:30 you leave school, we eat and have sex, and at [-]:[-] you enter the exam room again, and I wait for you at the door for another two and a half hours, and continue to eat when you come back Make love and send you back to school. The next day repeats the day before.”

"Do you think there is nothing wrong with that?"

"Do you think I want too much?" Yuan Hua said awkwardly, rubbing his fingers and reluctantly saying: "Then... I can ask for a little less, let's only do it twice a day, no, if you still think it's too much, just once OK……"

"That's not the problem." Shen Yang interrupted him, it's not a matter of doing it a few times at all!

He didn't understand, why couldn't Yuan Hua understand what he was talking about?He doesn't object to three times a day. In fact, it doesn't matter how many times a day. Anyway, it is difficult to suppress this kind of thing at the beginning, and he will not take the initiative to suppress it. After the two get along for a long time, they will gradually restrain themselves.

He said: "The problem is that I've been waiting for you to eat and have sex all day long..."

The point is that waiting for him to eat makes him feel lost!What he was discussing with him was this problem!

But Yuan Hua didn't understand.

"You don't want to wait for me, or don't you want to eat? Or don't you want to have sex?" Yuan Hua was confused, and said in a daze, "Why? Brother, don't you like me, love me? If so, why are you unhappy?"

"I love you, but I'm not happy!" Shen Yang said bluntly, "I'm not happy. I don't accomplish anything all day long. I can't do anything except miss you!"

"Don't miss me? Who else do you miss?" Yuan Hua shouted: "Brother, did you cheat? Who? Who is there? Come out and fight, I'll kill him!"

"You—" Shen Yang couldn't do anything about Yuan Hua's nonsense, he was so angry that his hands were shaking, and he said extremely depressed: "Don't talk about him, do you listen or not?"

"Listen." Yuan Hua twitched his nose, sat down again at the place Shen Yang pointed at, and looked at him with aggrieved eyes, tears swirling in his eyes.

"Are you happy these days?"

"Happy!" Yuan Hua hurriedly said, "Brother, I'm happy!"

Shen Yang said: "But I'm not happy."

"for……"

"Because I can't feel myself anymore." Shen Yang sighed: "You are the only one in my world, and I lost myself, which is wrong. People should be independent individuals."

"You are independent!"

"People should have their own pursuit of their dreams..."

"Private space?" Yuan Hua said, "You have it!"

"But I'm around you, so you're happy and at ease." Shen Yang said, "Do you understand what I'm talking about?"

"I..." Yuan Huahong cried dryly with eyes circled, "I don't know, I don't know what you're talking about..."

"Look," Shen Yang sighed, I don't know... Shen Yang was suddenly speechless, covered his face and rubbed vigorously a few times, Yuan Hua didn't think it was a problem at all, and he even liked it very much.

But this incident changed him, obliterated him, made him not like himself.

He said weakly: "Forget it, if you don't understand it, you don't understand it. Let me put it another way."

Yuan Hua sat on the carpet, looking up at Shen Yang eagerly.

"You are happy because I am waiting for you when you take the exam, I am waiting for you when you are cooking, and I am waiting for you when you are sleeping. Simply put, what makes you happy and at ease is that I am always waiting for you." You are the only one in my world." Shen Yang said: "But I am not happy. Because my world cannot only have you. If there is only you in my world, I will be unhappy because I lost myself."

"Would you still love me if I wasn't me anymore?"

"Why aren't you you anymore?" Yuan Hua opened his mouth and was about to cry again, with his hands on the ground, as if jumping up at any time, looking up at Shen Yang with a distorted face.

Under Shen Yang's glaring gaze, he began to cry tears.

"I'm Shen Yang, a doctor." Shen Yang's patience was exhausted by him, and his tone became tough, asking: "But I wait for you to hang around you every day, and I can't read books, write papers, and even treat patients. No contact or visit, am I still a doctor? Am I still Shen Yang? Am I still me?"