After the breakup, my ex's CP and I became angry

Chapter 32

The street lights were a bit dim, and there were no people on the path they crossed. They walked one after the other, letting the night wind blow their slightly baggy T-shirts, and let in a bit of coolness along the hem.

Shi Zhouyao put his hands in his pockets, and without looking ahead, his eyes glanced aimlessly at the small shops along the street.

In fact, their home is not close to the restaurant, and they have to walk several blocks. It is true that they want to relax, and it is just an excuse to go back. I didn't expect Sheng Lianzhao to walk back with him.

How did he know where his home was?

Shi Zhouyao thought suddenly, and turned his head to look at the tall and straight figure in front of him. Since just now, Sheng Lianzhao has been walking in front, as if he knows where his home is.

Forget it, now he is not in the mood to think about these things, he just wants to finish the journey quickly and go back to sleep soundly.

The inner drama was playing out like a revolving lantern in his mind, and he didn't notice that the person in front of him suddenly slowed down at some point, as if he was waiting for him on purpose.

Shi Zhouyao also slowed down his pace, but he refused to narrow the distance between the two of them.

Sensing his slowing down, Sheng Lianzhao simply stopped and turned around to wait for him.Under the street lamp, his brows and eyes were even deeper, and his pupils were hidden in the night, making it even more difficult to guess what he was thinking at the moment.

Shi Zhouyao stepped forward bravely, trying to pretend nothing happened, and just walked forward with his head down.Then Sheng Lianzhao sighed softly and asked him, "You plan to hide from me all the way like this?"

Shi Zhouyao didn't answer, but finally stopped the steps that were about to move forward.

Sheng Lianzhao stared at him: "Speak."

"There's nothing to say." Shi Zhouyao said, looking up into his eyes, "What do you want me to say?"

It was clearly in the darkness where he could not see clearly, but he could feel Sheng Lianzhao's eyes narrowed: "You know what I want to ask."

It's really funny, Shi Zhouyao snorted lightly: "Then what position are you asking me?"

Who is he, friend or lover?It doesn't seem to be the case, so what position did you use to get him to speak?

Sheng Lianzhao fell silent, but there was still no emotion in his eyes, or it was hard to see what kind of emotion was contained in his eyes.

It's really hard to understand.Is that how they all act in movies?

"Forget it." Shi Zhouyao didn't want to be so stupid anymore, the owner of a small shop on the side of the road was already poking his head out to look at them, probably judging by their tense appearance, he was afraid that they would start arguing at the door of the shop, affect business.

"I haven't had a good life in the past three years. I have acted in a few movies and made a few commercials. I haven't made much money. I have a lot of problems. You have seen it before. My physical fitness is not good now. In the future, those actions The characters in the film and so on may not be related to me." Shi Zhouyao said in a calm voice, "But I am still optimistic. For a while, I couldn't figure it out, and then I figured it out and it passed. What should I do? How to live. The only thing I feel guilty about is the breakup. Since you asked me to speak out today, I'll just say it out loud."

"Brother Sheng, we are in two worlds now. I know you are kind, and you don't have to pity me or sympathize with me. I'm fine now."

"I'm fine now," Sheng Lianzhao heard him say this, and suddenly felt an inexplicable irritability in his heart.He thinks it's good now, but Sheng Lianzhao doesn't think so.

It's a good thing to be happy with the situation, but how can he be happy with everything?Don't you think it's cruel?

"I thought about being friends with you before, but you rejected me later." Shi Zhou shook his nose, and when he talked about this, his tone was a little embarrassed, "It won't happen in the future, Don't worry." After speaking, he looked at Sheng Lianzhao, "That's all, are you satisfied?"

"Be friends." Sheng Lianzhao laughed shortly, as if he thought it was funny, "You want to be friends with anyone, don't you think it's too many?"

"Stop playing charades," Shi Zhouyao felt exhausted for a while, his standing legs were as heavy as lead, and wanted to quickly end this aggressive conversation, "Say it straight, Brother Sheng, what do you want?"

Sheng Lianzhao said: "I don't want to just be friends, Zhou Yao, I can't believe you haven't noticed."

Shi Zhouyao was stunned with his mouth slightly open, he really didn't see it.When we separated three years ago, Sheng Lianzhao's words were very clear: Then don't contact me again, and don't speak soft words to anyone first, no one in the world can't live without him.

He thought that anyone could turn back, but Sheng Lianzhao couldn't, and he would be the one who regretted it first among the two of them.But Sheng Lianzhao is a person who sticks to his words, he was so angry at that time, how could he pull himself off and say things like turning around?

After a while, Shi Zhouyao finally recovered his voice, and he asked softly, "Don't you think it's funny, brother Sheng, do you think we can go back to the past?"

"You know better than me what your identity is now. The road is still so long, why bother to circle in a dead end."

"It's not a dead end," Sheng Lianzhao said, "What if it's the only way?"

"Isn't there a way to get through, didn't you try it three years ago?" Shi Zhouyao smiled wryly, "It turns out that it is a dead end."

It didn't work out, they used to love each other so much, their relationship was indestructible, but it finally came to an end.But now they have not made any progress compared to that time, and even regressed, at least Shi Zhouyao himself is like this.

So what confidence do they have now to believe that it will be better to do it again?

It won't be good, Shi Zhouyao had such an idea, no matter how many times he tried again, it would be the same.

That huge chasm, that thick wall, and the self who keeps shrinking are all thorns in front of them.Feelings are not useful only by a person's stubbornness and hard work, but he is a coward, no one knows himself better than him, he can't do it.

Seeing that Sheng Lianzhao hadn't spoken for a long time, he lowered his eyes and smiled, and said, "It's still quite cold here, go back, Brother Sheng, and I'll go back too." After that, he turned around and continued walking forward.

This time, he didn't tear his face, he thought, he could finally be decent, unlike the time when they broke up, it didn't end well for both of them.

After walking a few steps, he heard Sheng Lianzhao's voice coming from behind him, not as calm as he was usually, even with a slight trill, he said: "Shi Zhou Yao, after passing this village, there will be no such voice anymore." Shop, you think about it."

Shi Zhouyao's footsteps paused, his hanging left hand unconsciously clenched into a fist, and he didn't turn his head.

He didn't think about it, he would definitely regret it, regret it to death, but he bit the bullet and didn't look back.

Sheng Lianzhao didn't wait for his answer, and didn't hear him say "I've thought about it" or "I haven't thought about it".

The night wind was lingering, and the fruit shops on the roadside were closing their doors one after another, and the rattling of rolling shutter doors kept coming and going.

After an unknown amount of time, Shi Zhouyao stepped forward and half of his back was melted by the night.

Sheng Lianzhao looked at his back and said in a deep voice, "Okay, you'd better not regret it."

The anger in the voice is exactly the same as back then, but at the end of the ruthless words, you'd better not regret it.

I don't know if I am reluctant to say one more sentence, or I am so ashamed that I don't want to say one more sentence.

Because he was walking too fast and couldn't see where he was going, Shi Zhouyao tripped over a raised stone on the side of the road, and his arm was scratched a lot, bleeding, so he simply sat down on the edge of the flower bed next to him .

After going out like this, I suddenly don't really want to go home anymore.There is nothing in that house, except for the cold dust that has not been back for a few months.

Ask an aunt to clean it tomorrow, he thought.

How are the potted flowers at home?He is not a person who is diligent in watering flowers. His mother always said that he is not suitable for growing flowers and plants. Those things are precious and dead, and if they are not careful, they will be raised to death by him. Tell him not to think about those things.

So he also decoratively raised a few pots of easy-to-raise flowers and plants at home.

He didn't ask people to water and sun regularly, is he dead?

Did Ronaldinho pack all his hotel stuff back?His forgetful character, who is not even as good as himself, isn't he missing something?

Recently, he has nothing to do after filming, will Brother Jing arrange things for him?

... Has Sheng Lianzhao walked back to the car now?He didn't wear a mask, so he won't be photographed, right?

Fuck, he realized belatedly that no matter how much he diverted his attention to other things, he would always turn to Sheng Lianzhao in the end.

He couldn't think of him.

How did it become like this again?

What was Sheng Lianzhao's expression when he said the phrase "You better not regret it"?

angry?disappointment?indifferent?

He messed up things again, and during the time they got along, Sheng Lianzhao gave way to him every step of the way and cared about him every step of the way, just like before.Their relationship finally eased, and now it's back to its original shape.

This time, there will probably be no more intersections.

He should have thought a long time ago that if Sheng Lian recruited such a proud person, he would either be his closest lover, or simply separate from each other, so what's the point of being friends?Sheng Lianzhao never lacked one or two friends.

Shi Zhouyao didn't know how he got home in the end. He didn't turn on the light after opening the door. He took off his shoes and went straight back to the bedroom and lay on his back on the bed. He closed his eyes several times, but he couldn't hold back any sleepiness.

Later, he dragged his body tiredly to the bathroom to take a shower, and when he lowered his head to take off his clothes, he realized that he was still wearing Shenglianzhao's clothes.

He took off his clothes, folded them and put them in the dirty clothes basket, involuntarily stared at the two clothes in a daze for a while, then went to take a shower in the shower in a dazed state.

The moment the water splashed on his body, the scene when he and Sheng Lianzhao first met inexplicably appeared in his mind.It wasn't a memorable scene, it could even be said to be ordinary, but he just remembered it for many years.

Maybe it was because of the casual glance when he opened the door that day, or maybe it was because of the boy's slightly frowning eyebrows at that time.

He remembered very clearly that he was packing things by his desk at that time, and then there was a low knock on the door.

Another roommate arrived, and Shi Zhouyao went to open the door with a smile on his face.

When the door opened, he saw the appearance of the person standing behind the door.Tall, thin, and good-looking.But the man frowned, and when he looked over, Shi Zhouyao could clearly see a hint of impatience in those eyes.

It's not easy to mess with, he thought at the time.

But what he didn't know was that Sheng Lianzhao was already trying hard to hide his emotions at that time. He had just finished arguing with his parents, and he dragged his suitcase to report for admission by himself.

No one noticed the subtle annoyance in his heart, only Shi Zhouyao could see it at a glance.