webnovelvip Chapter 106 Unfortunate
Chapter 106 Unfortunate
The viciousness of honest and honest people, like the gravel in rice or the unclean thorns in boneless fish fillets, will give people an unexpected pain.
Although this incident has nothing to do with viciousness, and Gu Yunkai didn't feel much pain, but it was like biting a rock with a meal, or being stabbed in the throat by a fish bone between the meat, there was an ups and downs of annoying displeasure moving with emotions.Jian Yuan sat resignedly to his fate, like a criminal who has just been captured, patiently waiting for the final judgment.
This made Gu Yunkai almost doubt whether he really didn't give the young musician any sense of security.
Gu Yunkai reached out and touched Jian Yuan's cheek, seeing his own face reflected in those eyes, suddenly realized that maybe from the beginning, he didn't fully understand the role of Roman.Roman is humble. He seems to be the only sublimated character in the whole movie. In fact, he has not escaped from the secular rut. He loves Kelly deeply, and jealousy and inferiority burned him.
Roman is not really without jealousy, he just hides it, for fear that apart from the obvious flaws on the outside, he will also completely expose the ugly side of his heart to Kelly.
He just couldn't figure out how, according to Jian Yuan's character, how could he keep silent.
"You think... I don't like it?" Gu Yunkai said in a strange tone, he suddenly withdrew his hand, his mind was in a mess, and what was surging was his feeling when he played Roman and Jian Yuan's almost docile and hesitant expression. .This is actually not a big deal, in the final analysis it is just jealousy, the two of them are currently dating, and they are too close to the actress, it is only natural for Jian Yuan to be jealous.
But it was probably because the feeling that Jian Yuan gave people in the past was too rational and too transparent, so clear that he seemed to be able to see through the entire soul directly, so Gu Yunkai felt a little uncomfortable.
What's more, what is revealed in his eyes is not just ordinary unhappiness, but the surging emotions under that layer of calm...
"The vast majority of people won't like it." Jian Yuan smiled wryly, "Using oneself to judge others, at least I don't like it very much. Since I was very young, I don't like others to touch things that I would cherish. No Ordinary likes, favorite things, those I am happy to share, I don’t care if anyone touches or even takes them away, but some are different.”
"I don't like anyone to touch my piano, even if it's just a touch." Jian Yuan subconsciously said, "Whether it's an ordinary person who doesn't know anything about it, or a master who appreciates it, I know they just want to appreciate it." Touch it, but still feel upset about it, like someone in the dark coveting my possessions."
Jian Yuan tilted his head slightly, leaning against the car window as if he was breathing for a while, and then said slowly: "But they are just objects after all, my unscrupulous possessiveness will not hurt anyone, I will lock them up , my family will not deliberately mess up and touch my taboo. But how can people be the same." He couldn't help frowning, and whispered, "I can't treat you like I treat my piano."
Looking at his appearance, Gu Yunkai finally understood why Jian Yuan stood there silently when Sharp came to visit at home not long ago and looked at the piano with great interest, and did not show his smile again until Sharp left the study .At that time, Gu Yunkai simply thought that Jian Yuan was not used to being disturbed by Sharp in their two-person world, as if every time he saw Sharp, he had a somewhat complicated expression.
It turned out to be like this, like an animal whose territory has been violated.
"I don't want to be like this either. Before that, I seemed to be restrained. It's like when I saw your friend at a banquet, I knew you weren't mine at that time, so I didn't think about it, even if there was something wrong with you." Be happy, don’t like it, and it won’t be too much.” Jian Yuan shook his head and smiled bitterly, “Or you told me that person is your friend, and after you told him that we are a couple, this kind of anxiety It will calm down a lot too."
But as time slowly passed, and as we got closer, the feeling expanded.
Especially...especially in this situation.
Obviously, he couldn't be more intimate with the other party, but he can only watch the other party talking and laughing at Yan Yan with another person, like a stranger who has nothing to do with him.Jian Yuan sometimes feels that he is greedy, obviously the two of them have already made an agreement, and obviously they are quite clear about their relationship with each other, but the anger and jealousy still surge up uncontrollably.
"I know you like me very much, and I also know what I've been acting like." Probably thinking that what he said was obvious enough, Jian Yuan calmed down instead, as if he was telling something that had nothing to do with him "I also know that what is said in the movie is all lies. The first love is to like the good things of the other party. When the bad things are exposed, the relationship will be unstable."
When he said these words, he became angry with the innocence of a child.
"You will accept my shortcomings, but not now, so I have been thinking, I can slowly let you accept all my bad things, and I have to work hard to let you see my good things..." Jian Yuan said His voice suddenly became muffled, and he said in a deep voice, "But I still couldn't hold back, and you discovered it."
Jealousy is something that everyone has, but nothing can be overdone, once it is overdone, the end will be obvious.
Jian Yuan has always been very clear.
Gu Yunkai didn't know what to say, he decided to talk to this man - he was no longer a young man, he realized that he always thought of Jian Yuan too simply, as if the other party was something real Like an angel, without the slightest worry and trouble, but in fact it is not the case.
Until now, Gu Yunkai finally understands why Roman, who is completely different from Jian Yuan in character and emotion, is based on Jian Yuan.
When Gu Yunkai was about to speak, the staff outside suddenly came and called him to start work. The rest time was not long at all, and the two of them remained silent for a while, so naturally they completely used up the rest time without knowing it. up.Gu Yunkai had no choice but to bow and stand up, and said slowly, "Wait for me for a while, we can talk seriously after work is over."
Of course, Jian Yuan didn't have any objections, and after nodding in agreement, Gu Yunkai left the car and went out.
This is the first time for Jian Yuan to watch Gu Yunkai act, because it is not a relatively private plot - such as a sex scene, so there is no need to clear the scene, so Jian Yuan can watch a small part of the entire film production, usually he You can only see the finished product.Watching an actor acting is an interesting and novel thing in itself, not to mention that it is Jian Yuan's boyfriend who is acting now, and his hostility towards Alyssa was originally born from this.
Roman's prototype was him, and Roman's actor was Gu Yunkai, who squeezed into a heroine well enough to occupy all of Roman's sights.
Actors are such a profession, people forget about themselves, and get to know more completely different characters, but for Jian Yuan, Gu Yunkai is Gu Yunkai, this is the disadvantage of acting with acquaintances, especially if this person has ever talked to you familiar to the point of "indistinguishable from each other".Although I wouldn't say that there is a sense of drama, but the feeling of jealousy is indispensable, but I know clearly in my heart that this is Gu Yunkai's career, it is what he wants to do, and it is the dream he wants to pursue.
The heart does not lie.
Jian Yuan deeply knows that his nature is not as pure and innocent as Gu Yunkai has always seen, but he also knows that Gu Yunkai likes that docile and well-behaved self.Unlike Gu Yunkai, who is so confident that he has nothing to hide, Jian Yuan has suffered enough in music, and there has never been anything that made him fall so hard and not give up, so he didn't want to be on Gu Yunkai's body. Another somersault.
He had already planned that after the two of them have been together for a long time, the relationship is deep enough to ensure that Gu Yunkai's love for him will not change, and then slowly let the other party see his true colors, there is a time buffer.
But now it falls short.
Gu Yunkai was standing beside Smith right now, bowing his head and saying something, with a serious expression on his face. Jian Yuan got out of the car not long after he left, and sat alone on a prop box outside the studio, concentrating and Unscrupulously looking at her boyfriend's side face, this scene has been dreamed by Jian Yuan hundreds of times, although it is the first time she has seen it, but the familiar one seems to have been experienced countless times.
This is nothing surprising, Gu Yunkai's nature is so rigorous, and Jian Yuan's thoughts are almost the same, so he feels that his heart is squeezed by something, as if there is a big hole in the ground, and he is going to the abyss slippery.Sometimes Jian Yuan even thinks that if Gu Yunkai chooses someone other than him, he will probably go crazy.
Alyssa was standing next to the two of them listening. Jian Yuan didn't dislike Alyssa at all, and he couldn't say whether he liked it or not. The other party seemed to feel something and turned his head. There is no tense atmosphere.
He was jealous, but not rude.
This is the first time Jian Yuan has seen Gu Yunkai at work, and it's a bit funny to say, the two of them have known each other for so many years, but they don't know each other completely, Gu Yunkai has never attended his concert, and he Because of the convenience, I have never been absent from Gu Yunkai's works, but it is the first time to visit the class.
Different from the footage shown, Gu Yunkai looked like a person from another world through the big screen at that time, which was not real. Occasionally, Jian Yuan felt that he was indeed the person in the story, but it was just a coincidence that he was the same person as his own. The boyfriend has the same face.People's joys, sorrows, sorrows, and joys are not the same, and their temperaments and tempers are also different. No matter how brilliant or despicable the characters are, they have nothing to do with Gu Yunkai himself.
Fans get to know Gu Yunkai behind them through these characters, but Jian Yuan gets to know those characters through Gu Yunkai.
Roman is like a combination of the two of them, and Jian Yuan has no idea what method Gu Yunkai will choose to play this role.
The conversation between Gu Yunkai and Smith was actually related to the script. The actor has an idea about his role and feels that some parts of the script can be modified, so it is very common to negotiate with the director.Of course, it also depends on the coffee position. After all, whether you can talk to the director and whether the director will listen to it is another matter. The production cost of this film is not high. Gu Yunkai has a certain status, and he can still influence some details of the script through his thoughts and interpretations of the characters.
The scene to be filmed later is that after being abandoned, Kelly returns to the small attic distraught, lying on Roman's lap and crying for comfort.
And Roman naturally cares about her and takes care of her in every possible way. According to Gu Yunkai's understanding at the beginning, Roman is a character who can see clearly but is quite a virgin. He loves Kelly repressedly and humblely; After that, Gu Yunkai had a new view on Roman.
According to the requirements of the script, this part of romance is depressing and tender, but now Gu Yunkai feels that this part of romance should be full of irony.
Smith was very interested in his idea, and felt that it was reasonable, but if the script was to be changed, the actors would have to act on the spot for such a plot, so he called Alyssa again.According to the idea of taking care of Yunkai in this scene, Kelly didn't change much, but Roman must change some roles.
This part of the play is actually coming to an end. Roman feels that his life is dying, and he is slowly losing control of the music, which is the so-called exhaustion of talents. His parents rarely come to visit him, but they scold him bloody But the only lover is insatiable, asking for his affection and care again and again, but never returns half a cent of loyalty.
Pain and despair overwhelmed the unfortunate young man.
Do not erupt in silence, die in silence.
If it is changed according to the idea of taking care of Yunkai, then this paragraph is undoubtedly Roman's last struggle against his sad love and his miserable fate. Even if it is weak, it is still a struggle.Smith, who has the heart of a literary and artistic young man, was moved by this idea at the time. Although the prototype is Jian Yuan, Jian Yuan is happy after all, and this love story is tragic. The only thing in common between Roman and Jian Yuan is their love for The lover's single-mindedness is as good as loyalty (about which Smith is actually skeptical, of course, not Roman).
Smith pondered for a moment, and felt that Gu Yunkai's idea was very good. Many times, movies are like creating a new world. Every predetermined character may not always be like that, and individual actors will give them a new world. life and details.
Just like there are a thousand Hamlets in the eyes of a thousand people. Everyone has a different living environment, a different personality, and naturally a different way of thinking, so the angle of viewing things and even characters is also different.Some people can empathize and understand Roman's humbleness and patience, while others think Roman is useless; even Kelly is the same, there have been discussions in the crew, many female assistants think Kelly is promiscuous, while some men think she is just a pursuit of love It's true that Roman couldn't give her a sense of security for the little woman, so there's nothing wrong with that.
Appropriate dramatic adaptation is a normal thing in the shooting process, but this kind of freedom depends on the ability of the actors.
Smith was in favor of Gu Yunkai's adaptation of the last paragraph, while Alyssa didn't have any big ideas, and other people's opinions didn't matter too much. It didn't take long for this matter to be discussed.
Jian Yuan didn't know what they were discussing in full swing, but seeing the staff suddenly get busy, she knew that the shooting was about to start, so she adjusted her posture again. The prop box was quite high, and his two legs were hanging on the Swaying in the air, bending his body, resting his face on his knees with his hands, waiting idly.
The shooting started quickly, and in order to highlight the contrast between Roman's body and attitude, Smith even asked the makeup artist to make Gu Yunkai's sick look a lot heavier.
"What did I do wrong!"
The scene here is that it rained heavily at night, and Kelly walked home in the rain after breaking up.It didn't rain today, and Alyssa was drenched in water before shooting. Her whole body was wet, and her eyes could hardly be opened, which was in line with Kelly's despair and grief after being abandoned.
After the camera position was ready, Alyssa fell down in front of the camera. Kelly leaned on the edge of the piano bench, put her face next to Roman's thigh, trying to absorb the body temperature of others to make herself feel safe. She choked up and said: "Tell me , Roman, do I not deserve happiness?" Kelly returned to Roman's arms, like a bird returning to its nest of reassurance, she turned a blind eye to the sickness of the man in front of her, and just vented her pain.
"Be fair, Kelly." Roman said helplessly, his tone was far less warm and caring than before, with a calm smile, if Kelly didn't know how obsessively this man loves her, she would almost Thinking it was a mockery, he said coldly, "If you don't deserve happiness, then what happened to me."
Kelly became almost uneasy, her shattered heart tortured by love and men once again blinded her conscience, and said out of nowhere: "How can we be the same? You are used to it, But I... my pain is beyond your imagination." She was already spoiled by Roman's tenderness and concession, and she almost didn't think about it when she blurted out.
Even though Roman has long been used to Kelly's ignorance and ruthlessness, he was still hurt at this moment. He sneered, groped a little to help Kelly's cold and beautiful face, and said calmly: "I know, I Already knew that."
The teary-eyed Kelly thought that Roman was comforting herself, and she vented annoyed and wronged: "You don't know! What do you know! Let me tell you the truth, I'm just an ordinary woman, and I only expect one Simple love, neither intends to become famous, nor wants to be a rich wife, why does God treat me so harshly." Big tears rolled down her face, and she hugged Roman's leg happily Quickly burst into tears.
And Roman stroked her soft long hair indifferently, and his voice was as dry as this room, without any warmth: "But crying is useless, and you know it very well in your heart."
"Yeah! Yeah! What's the use of crying! I don't care." Kelly screamed, yelling indignantly, "God! I'm not as cold as you, Roman, don't think of everyone Like you, I'm a vulgar, ordinary, foolish woman, nothing compared to your extraordinary musician, what can I do if I can't even cry! Have mercy, let me this The night will be better."
She was just going crazy.
And Roman's empty eyes were still in the wrong place. Kelly couldn't help stretching out her hand to straighten the man's face. Her face was flushed with anger, and her eyes were about to burst into flames. She yelled: " You idiot! You can't even talk to me, you don't know what stupid things you said."
"You silly woman." Roman was almost insulting Kelly, even though his face was flat, as if it was some kind of weird and intimate name, but in such a tense atmosphere, Kelly still let her go. He left on his knees and quickly got up.
"What did you say?!"
Roman's face became paler, and he panted quickly: "Listen to me, open your eyes as far as you can see! You fool, fool! There will be no one in this world who loves you like me with all my heart Now, you stupid, vulgar, stupid stupid woman, do you think they love you? They just look at your empty head, and people like you can fall into their trap with no effort at all."
Kelly slapped him directly, with a voice like a female cat whose tail was stepped on: "How dare you say that! If you can't stand me so much, why should you be a generous and compassionate saint! You think I am willing to treat you Together? You bastard, it makes me sick to see you!"
"Wake up!" Roman's head tilted to one side, he turned his head persistently, and said sharply, "Do you think I am a tolerant and considerate saint? That's just to cover up my infatuation with you, that's because I left Don't let you go, shake your little head, do you really think that as long as you are happy, I will be happy?"
Kelly was a little dazed, she really thought so.
"That's something I can do without caring about you, but I love you. A stupid woman like you, if it weren't for my love for you, what do you think I'm enduring for, you probably think I'm doing it for I feel complacent about my tolerance, but that’s not the case, the pain is tormenting me every day, and I don’t forgive you for myself, but I feel that my heart is broad-minded, and I hope you will be happy, and the motivation of happiness is supporting me.” Roman quickly After regaining his composure, he said sadly, "But I'm leaving you, Kelly."
"Where are you going?" Kelly was taken aback and subconsciously asked, "I'd like to go with you."
Roman said calmly: "I'm afraid not, Kelly. I can't take you where I'm going. I'm about to return to the embrace of God, but you still need to enjoy the happiness in the world." Only then did Kelly realize that his face was ugly. She was so frightened that she burst into tears, and Roman returned to his usual appearance. He stroked Kelly's cheek weakly, and said softly, "Why be sad, Kelly, I'm about to end my misfortune, You, too, are nearing the end of your misfortune."
"No, Roman." Kelly sobbed, she embraced this man devoutly, despair swallowed her heart deeper than before, she said with grief, "You are not my misfortune."
"I'm."
The author has something to say: According to the usual practice, I saw in the last chapter that some readers said that they didn’t understand what the eyes were. In fact, I wanted to leave a blank and let everyone make up the "intense" eyes. 233333 I didn’t expect it to be too subtle Yes, I thought Yunkai's attitude and Alyssa's reaction could explain it, so I'm sorry -3- kiss to express my apology.
Jian Yuan's character is actually an attribute that I like very much, that is, a rational and sickly girl. He is jealous, but it is far more than simple. He mentioned the piano, but he is using the piano as a metaphor. I don't want to let anyone Touch you, or even see you, even if it's just an ordinary contact (he chose to imprison the instrument, everyone can imagine what he wants to do to Yunkai.)
Of course, there is nothing about things, but Jian Yuan’s thoughts on Yun Kai are the same, but Yun Kai is also an actor. It can be said that his work provokes Jian Yuan almost all the time, just like Roman’s to Kelly. Tolerance is love. In fact, Roman is not tolerant at all. He is jealous, angry, and suppresses this feeling, for fear that Kelly will notice his thoughts and leave him.
Roman is very clear, he has always been clear: I can't leave Kelly, not Kelly can't leave me.
The same is true for Jian Yuan, music and Yun Kai are the most frustrating things for him, he has no talent, and Yun Kai has always controlled his feelings and emotions.He loves music humblely, and also loves Yunkai humbly, and no matter what he does, Music will never hate him for the rest of his life, but Yun has meetings.
So Jian Yuan has been restraining the beast in his heart (because he does have the ability to make Yun Kai disappear in this world, completely imprisoning this man without being discovered by anyone), his self-control is precisely because he has the ability It can be done, but he realizes rationally that he can't do it (especially the uncle is definitely an accomplice who murdered and helped to collect the corpse).
The reason why Smith wrote Kelly is also because of this reason-because Kelly is a person who is loved and does not know it. In the end, Roman's death ending also implies that Jian Yuan will not hurt Yunkai even if he destroys himself. Still concerned about Kelly's well-being, he considered his admiration unfortunate for her.Jian Yuan is also afraid of his own possessiveness, thinking that it is unfortunate that Yun Kai falls in love with him.
So in fact, you can imagine Jian Yuan's possessiveness, knowing that his relationship with Yunkai cannot be made public, and still happily agreeing to the other party's consideration, what kind of mood and love was there at that time.