webnovelvip Chapter 145 Communication
Chapter 145 Communication
At the beginning, Gu Yunkai thought that Jian Yuan's request was because he saw that he was tired of the entertainment industry, just like Gu Jianyue.
So almost when Jian Yuan wanted to talk to him about how to solve the problem of two people dating in different places due to work, Gu Yunkai decided to quit the circle without wasting much time. The reason is very simple. Acting is not good for Gu Yunkai. It's worth mentioning, but music has different meanings to Jian Yuan. If one of them has to compromise, Gu Yun is the more suitable one for the meeting.
But now listening to what Jian Yuan said, the other party seems to be completely unaware that he already has the intention of quitting the circle.Gu Yunkai is actually not very used to it, but he also doesn't hate Jian Yuan's habit of explaining everything carefully and clearly. After all, he is not a person who is good at raising dissatisfaction on his own initiative.
And Jian Yuan and Gu Yunkai seldom had conflicts. If it was because of the accumulation of some insignificant things that caused the final emotional collapse, then it was undoubtedly the most loss-making business that Gu Yunkai had ever done in his life.
Jian Yuan moved away from Gu Yunkai's shoulder, his fingers naturally hanging on his knees, and he said softly: "I don't know what to do, Yunkai, it seems that everything has gone wrong after being with you. I became timid and timid, and told you my thoughts, as if I was putting pressure on you; but if I didn’t tell you, I didn’t know what it would look like in the end. I’m not an uncle, no He is so tolerant; not father, not as calm as him."
"I have always loved music. It is my life and an existence that I cannot give up. But I know that if you were not there that day, I don't know what I would be like now. My persistence in it is Because of you, my loyalty to it is also because of you, if my ending doesn't include you... I can't think of it."
Jian Yuan smiled softly: "Since I want to see you, I should give in, right? But I was a little worried that I would disturb your work, so I contacted Arnold specifically to find out about your next arrangements .Why are you looking at me like that? I’m not blind, I can see that you have been staring at Arnold just now, don’t worry, we have nothing.”
This joke didn't amuse Gu Yunkai, he slowly squeezed Jian Yuan's hand, and said softly, "You... have been waiting here for a long time?"
"Not long." Jian Yuan lowered his head and said calmly, "I'm used to it."
Even though it was just such a simple nine words, Gu Yunkai's heart almost twisted and he couldn't breathe. Jian Yuan raised his head unconsciously, as if he didn't realize what he just said. When Zhui Xin said it, she smiled brightly and warmly as usual, as if saying this could make Gu Yunkai calm down.
I am used to it, and it is indeed a few words that are very useful. When helping others, when speaking politely to them, you will inevitably have to deal with a few words such as "by the way", "coincidentally", "smoothly", "I am used to it", etc.
Gu Yunkai knew that Jian Yuan didn't do it on purpose, let alone complaining or being unhappy, he just wanted to make Gu Yunkai feel at ease, anyway, he was used to waiting, so naturally he wouldn't feel like waiting too long.
But how can he feel at ease.
Gu Yunkai couldn't help but think about every event that Jian Yuan attended. This young genius who was passionate about music was full of enthusiasm and looked at the empty seat with hope until the songs went through one after another. It is always empty, so it slowly changes from full of expectations to silent disappointment. After a long time, it is inevitable that I will get used to this feeling of disappointment, and I am also used to waiting again and again and finally my expectations fail.
But since they fell in love for so long and even got married, Jian Yuan never complained to him, but tolerated every time he broke an appointment and every reason why he couldn't go.Even during their call not long ago, Jian Yuan just whispered: I hope you can participate in each of my live shows and be the first audience of each of my songs.
Hope, not even I want you.
Gu Yunkai folded his cuffs uncomfortably. Since he has never been in a relationship, he is not very good at handling such occasions, but there are some things that are absolutely impossible not to say. After thinking about it for a while, he still said: "It's not good for you to do this." He was silent for a moment, trying to correct his preaching tone, and said as gently as possible, "We can wait until we are both free. You shouldn't give up this concert for me."
"But I want to see you." Jian Yuan tilted his head slightly, and said to Gu Yunkai with a smile.
"I asked my mother the same question. I asked her whether she has regretted her choice since she gave up her career. She has been questioned, criticized, sympathized and sympathized by others. "Jian Yuan suddenly patted his knee and stood up, jumped down the steps briskly, looked back and said happily, "Mom said that the most important thing is to do what you want to do, choose a decision that you will not regret, glory Whether it’s good or not, it’s all about making yourself better, since you’ve already encountered the best things in your life, why should you miss them for the illusory things?”
Jian Yuan turned a big circle in the open space, he lowered his head, and looked at Gu Yunkai seriously: "I have also met it, the music is very good, I am very happy to meet it, I am very happy because of it I have met many, many different people, and it is a pleasure to communicate with other masters who have entered the hall, because I do not have that kind of talent, and I am very excited to see a better side of music."
"But in the blueprint I conceived, you are the only one indispensable."
Gu Yunkai looked at the ring on Jian Yuan's finger, and suddenly realized that in this relationship, Jian Yuan was actually far more mature and cautious than him, and he had to treat this relationship with more care.
This marriage, like the wedding ring he put down so easily, is just as important as a thousand pieces of gold in Jian Yuan's heart.
"I have always known that Yunkai is very powerful. If it were you, no matter whether I was on the road in the future, I would reach the same height." Jian Yuan said softly, "But if I don't have Yunkai, maybe as early as that night I just gave up. I thought about it very carefully, if I want to see you, then I will come; if you want to see me, then you will come, okay?"
He squinted his eyes in the sun and smiled brightly, he hardly looked like a man close to 30 years old, and he was exactly the same as the young man Gu Yunkai met four years ago, with flying freedom and pure magnanimity.
The string in my heart plucked unknown.
Gu Yunkai smiled slightly and said, "Okay, it couldn't be better."
"Then it's settled." Jian Yuan took out a well-colored orange from his trouser pocket and slowly peeled it off. Then he darted to Gu Yunkai's side like a swimming fish, peeled off a piece and stuffed it in his hand. He stuffed another flap into his mouth, and said sullenly, "That's right, I remember the Golden Raspberry Awards are about to start soon?"
"Yes." Gu Yunkai nodded and frowned inadvertently. Jian Yuan kept looking at him, so he noticed it all at once.
Jian Yuan asked a little nervously, "What's wrong?"
"It's nothing serious." Gu Yunkai stretched his arm a little bit. The leather belt on his arm was relatively hard. When Jian Yuan jumped up just now, he happened to touch a bruise through the gun belt. The sudden dull pain was severe, and he sank heavily. Said, "It's just a few bruises, nothing serious."
Jian Yuan's face changed slightly, but in the end he didn't say anything, just nodded with a smile: "Then when we go back, I'll give you some medicine?"
"Okay." Gu Yunkai knew what Jian Yuan actually wanted to say, and also knew why Jian Yuan didn't say it, which reminded him suddenly of Jian Yuan's appearance when he confessed to him that day, which was completely opposite to the cute appearance. Yuan has a very strong possessive desire for his belongings, and Gu Yunkai couldn't be more clear about it. He once admitted that he also has corresponding thoughts about Gu Yunkai, but people are different from things. He knows that this is wrong, and he will never do it.
He will never do it.
Except for Gu Yunkai himself, he will not imprison his dreams.
Gu Yunkai's finger landed on the ring of Jian Yuan's ring finger, and he moved it lightly with his fingertips, as if casually bringing up the topic, he said slowly: "I'm afraid the ring will fall off, so I put it on the second corner of the table. In a locker, you can go and help me, anyway, there will be no work later, and the rest is free time, the two of us go out for a stroll, Glendorby still has a lot of weird and interesting places."
"Ok!"
Jian Yuan's eyes suddenly lit up twice, he nodded cheerfully, and happily got into the car to look for the ring.
Gu Yunkai turned his head to look at Jian Yuan's back. The other party had recovered his usual vitality. A moment ago, he looked sullen and unhappy, as if he had seen the haze of the day before, but was instantly dispelled by the clear sunlight. He is still the most familiar with this appearance of Jian Yuan. Yuan, and most hope to see Jian Yuan like this.
"How long do you want to stay?" Gu Yunkai stretched out his hand very naturally, letting Jian Yuan put the ring on for him, then said after a pause, "If it's long enough, maybe we can go back together. I don’t need me for a few shots, and there is almost a week of rest, Smith and the others are going to shoot elsewhere.”
Jian Yuan hugged him from behind, and said in thought: "At least...we'll wait until we finish the Golden Raspberry Awards with you."
"What if I really win the prize?" Gu Yun laughed.
"Then... I'm going to ask their association to issue a trophy made of gold." Jian Yuan snorted and laughed, "The golden raspberry that we agreed to, can't give us an iron raspberry."
The Golden Raspberry Awards are not a rich association. They were transferred from an authoritative association, but almost all the rich have withdrawn their money. Basically, the association maintains its operation with its own pocket, and occasionally there are some sponsors. But the money in hand is not a lot, and this is an ironic trophy, so the trophy is actually worth no more than 50 yuan, and the material changes every year - whichever is cheaper, whichever is the best.
Since Arnold, the big boss, has opened his mouth, Gu Yunkai will certainly not be a workaholic to the end. He went to take off his makeup and changed his clothes, and then went to the set to say hello to Smith——Smith probably still has a grudge against Gu Yun. Kai married Jian Yuan but didn't tell him, so he snorted several times at Gu Yunkai.
The relationship between them is closer than ordinary cooperation, it is not an exaggeration to say that they are ordinary friends, Smith is like a devil to others on the set, but when he gets along with Gu Yunkai, he is still very kind.Gu Yunkai was dumbfounded by his childish attitude, and left after saying hello.
Now that Gu Yunkai's work is over, Judy's work today is also over. The three of them let Ren Yuan drive back to the hotel. Jian Yuan didn't drive himself, but he has a bunch of keys in his hand. It's hard to tell exactly how many cars Arnold has - but because of this, they can drive by themselves when they go out later, so they don't have to keep Ren Yuan waiting.
Gu Yunkai still feels that it is aggrieved that such an agent as Ren Yuan came to work as a driver for him, but Ren Yuan has never been able to beat a fart with three sticks, so it is difficult to see whether he is dissatisfied or not.
This time I went back to the hotel first to apply some medicine. Gu Yunkai took off his coat and sat on the bed wearing only a black vest. There were several scratches and bruises on his arms. Jian Yuan took medicinal wine to help rub the bruises. , obviously the injured person was not him at all, but his face was wrinkled as if he had bitten into a sauerkraut that had been soaked for three years, folded so that it resembled the creases on the top of a steamed bun.
Jian Yuan hesitated to speak, but in the end he helped Gu Yunkai apply the medicine without saying a word.
"Speaking of which, I just wanted to mention something to you." Gu Yunkai lowered his head, put his hand on his shoulder, and said lightly, "Actually, even if you didn't say it at the time, I would have to bring it up to you sooner or later. It’s okay, after a while, when Sangli’s project is finalized, I want to try the audition for "The Legend of Weng Lou". If I can pass, I plan to withdraw after filming. Yes, there are a few endorsements for a short time, I don't plan to renew..."
Jian Yuan's hands paused, and he tentatively asked: "Why do you suddenly plan to do this? What kind of new job do you want to get?"
"Run to sell insurance? Probably go back to study to get a diploma and then go into business, hiss—you should be gentle." Gu Yunkai frowned, Jian Yuan responded in a panic, and the strength in his hand was really lightened Quite a lot, he said with his face on his face, "It's not a sudden plan. It's just that after staying for a long time, I feel that this circle is really not suitable for me. You don't seem too surprised?"
"What are you surprised? Could it be that I have affected you?" Jian Yuan screwed up the lid of the medicinal wine again, sat cross-legged behind Gu Yunkai and rubbed away the bruises for him, and said calmly, "Yunkai, these The matter is your decision, just like it was my decision to give up the concert and come here. We are all adults, and we have to bear the consequences of whatever decision we make. I care about you and want to be with you together, so I give up some opportunities and want to go on with you for a longer time. Whether you want to be with me more and make the decision to quit the circle, that is also your consideration."
"So I won't ask if you are influenced by me, if you are shaken because of me, you are the one who really makes the decision. Yunkai, you are not a person who is easily influenced, you will not be led around by emotions , you will always make your best and most satisfying decision." Jian Yuan said softly, "The reason why I tell you these things is because this relationship is maintained by two people, and it depends on me alone. use."
Jian Yuan looked at Gu Yunkai's slightly surprised expression, couldn't help but smiled and rubbed his face, rubbing the smell of medicinal wine on Gu Yunkai's face, and chuckled happily after seeing the disgusted expression of his lover Get up: "Don't make that expression, I'm different from you, Yun Kai, I know what you wanted to say before, you wanted to ask me if I was confused, why did you suddenly give up that opportunity, right?"
Gu Yunkai nodded silently, and suddenly felt that Jian Yuan in front of him was a little strange, not that Jian Yuan had always been so childish in his heart, but in his heart he always felt that this musician was always happy, agile, kind and kind. People who understand people will not be linked to these too real and heavy things.
"Because I love you." Jian Yuan said softly, he leaned over and kissed Gu Yunkai's cheek slightly, his voice was gentle, "I'm already an adult, so no matter what decision I make, it's mine The choice, and what you think about your future is also your choice. I will tell you what is wrong between us and we need to solve it together; if you think there is a problem between us, you can also tell me .”
Gu Yunkai whispered: "Will you be sad? Every time I perform, I'm away because of my work."
"But you love me." Jian Yuan said softly, "I don't love you humblely, Yun Kai, I can feel that you are constantly trying to respond to me. Everyone's feelings are always more or less, I was born Emotional, eager for attention, eager for response, eager for intimacy, but you are not like this, I know, you prefer to be alone, and you prefer to be free. In order to be with you, I have been very restrained, because you like me so much, I can feel that you have already given me all your love except for seeing her, so there is nothing more to ask for, and it would be too greedy to ask for more."
"Come here." Gu Yunkai felt his nose was a little sore, he opened his arms and patted Jian Yuan lightly, and hugged him, the other party was taken aback for a moment, then hugged him obediently, the two of them hugged In one piece.He rested his pillow on Jian Yuan's shoulder and said softly: "If I miss you, I will never forgive myself for the rest of my life."
Jian Yuan sighed helplessly, and Gu Yunkai heard him whisper, "Me too." It's just that the voice was so soft that it was hard to tell whether it was real or an illusion.
In fact, Gu Yunkai has indeed considered the corresponding issues. Compared with normal work, the time interval between being in the entertainment circle is too long. For example, when he goes to shoot and prepare, he will go out for several months. There is almost no other way to meet each other through mobile phone contact.Although Jian Yuan did get inspired and immersed himself in music on weekdays, Gu Yunkai would always drag him out to eat three meals a day, and there were times when he didn't concentrate. Most of the time after the two of them lived together Still stuck together.
The current situation is only better than before, and the two still get together less and leave more.Sometimes Gu Yunkai would feel a little lonely. No matter how much Jian Yuan loves to compose music, he is not like Gu Yunkai who can go away for several months. Whether it is an exchange meeting or a concert, he controls most of the time. For a week or even half a month, it’s okay to be on a business trip, but every time Gu Yunkai is shooting, he stays at home alone for a long time, let alone a few months, occasionally composing music and playing the piano, face-to-face Facing the empty room, I don't know what it feels like.
He knows what it's like to be lonely, so he doesn't want Jian Yuan to taste that feeling.
Love is nothing more than this kind of thing, mutual tolerance, mutual compromise, if everything is done according to one's own personal will, no matter how strong the other party's love is, it will fade away sooner or later.Gu Yunkai is not a little girl immersed in fairy tale love, and he is not blind either. You can see how much Jian Yuan has worked hard for this relationship. Since Jian Yuan feels that they need to be closer, then It means spending more time together.
Before Jian Yuan, Gu Yunkai had never liked anyone. He didn't know what a normal couple's relationship was like. He had always been alone and could live a good life. The problem of abstinence brought about by illness in the previous life, his desire for sex in this life is also very weak, not none, but very weak, but he is so, it does not mean that Jian Yuan is also the same.
Gu Yunkai can be satisfied with the mobile phone communication once a day, as long as there is contact, it doesn't matter if they haven't seen each other for several months, but Jian is far from it.Since two people are together, it is impossible to only think about themselves, not to mention that they are married now, Gu Yunkai and Jian Yuan do not intend to adopt children, and their focus is almost only on each other, so naturally they should take care of each other's thoughts.
Later, the two of them drove to see the landscape photos taken by Gu Yunkai before. The food truck selling Erka was still there. For the deluxe Erka version, the corresponding ingredients have also increased a lot, reminding Gu Yunkai of the various set meals he saw when eating grilled cold noodles.
Jian Yuan and Gu Yunkai sat on the edge of the flower bed in the park and folded oil paper. After eating two mouthfuls, he suddenly said to Gu Yun in a mysterious way: "Why don't we take the food truck home with us?"
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